Collide

 In the debris of my damaged life, there shines a dimly lit token of what my heart once was.

It was beautiful and forgiving. It showed grace when none was given and held secrets till my mind forgot them. My flame has been wandering through time waiting for my person. Waiting for someone's soul to recognize mine as its equal yoke. Its must have. Ive learned to settle for the bare minimum because today's kindness is yesterday's red flags. Ive always heard the old love died with the elders. The lets stay and fix it kind of love. The stare each other in the eyes until your heart is clear kind of love. Never did I imagine finding such a person let alone one I can call mine. In the same way I became full of Grace and forgiveness, I became cold and bitter. I no longer cared for others and stopped putting myself first. I never felt worthy enough to consider myself to a higher standard. I allowed the world to repeatedly take from my empty cup. 

Until you.

You have proven to me why up until this point, I was always nothing with no one. God was still working on the design for our life. To be completely honest with you, I can't imagine life without you at this point. Every day the love I have grows as I know more about you and understand why God kept me waiting all these years. Always feeling I was missing something more, the last piece of my being. I was always waiting for the happiness and the partnership of love. Someone to wake up beside knowing they are the best part of my day, and going to sleep with the promise of security you won't leave me behind through the night. The thoughts have consumed me, what our life will entail. The secrets we will keep and the memories we will make. The journeys we will tread and the love that we will share. The passion and the promise to always give more than we take. To fulfill each other in ways nobody has come close to this far. Our answer for life is always going to be YET. We will always make a point to choose each other daily, even when we feel we have nothing left to give. We will collide into life together, merging our pain, trauma and happiness. This is my promise to you.

Always.